June 21, 2011
it was short, but sweet. thanks for the hug! man do i miss this guy. i don’t think i’ve ever missed someone this much. it’s only been a few days but i can definitely sense that our relationship is being challenged in so many ways. “A woman’s heart should be so lost in God; that a man needs to seek Him in order to find her.” Lately I realized that I’ve began to lose some faith in that short (but poweful) quote.  Somewhere along the way, I’ve found myself getting lost in the tangibles and relying more on my own abilities like overly thinking about how much I want to communicate or about the things I want to do… But if I think back to the beginning of this relationship and remember how blessed I felt that God would really grant me someone this special in my life, if I would just remember the sole fact that this relationship is His blessing, then I shouldn’t fear in anything else, but the One who can take it away. I don’t know if it’s a new sense of vulnerability but it’s definitely an uncomfortable, strange feeling. I don’t like it that much right now… But at the same time, I know God is really using it to refine me and grow my dependence for Him. I feel like God knows that we’re a relationship-oriented people… so when He wants to challenge us to love, rely, trust and seek Him more, He’ll put people in our lives to teach us these things. I know I have so much to learn about God and His ways… I also know I have so much to learn about Patrick and his ways… but hopefully as I pray, God would reveal to me all the necessary things I need to know.  Love is an action first and a feeling second. If you love people, eventually you’ll come to like them. -Tim Keller

it was short, but sweet. thanks for the hug!

man do i miss this guy. i don’t think i’ve ever missed someone this much. it’s only been a few days but i can definitely sense that our relationship is being challenged in so many ways. “A woman’s heart should be so lost in God; that a man needs to seek Him in order to find her.” Lately I realized that I’ve began to lose some faith in that short (but poweful) quote.  Somewhere along the way, I’ve found myself getting lost in the tangibles and relying more on my own abilities like overly thinking about how much I want to communicate or about the things I want to do… But if I think back to the beginning of this relationship and remember how blessed I felt that God would really grant me someone this special in my life, if I would just remember the sole fact that this relationship is His blessing, then I shouldn’t fear in anything else, but the One who can take it away. I don’t know if it’s a new sense of vulnerability but it’s definitely an uncomfortable, strange feeling. I don’t like it that much right now… But at the same time, I know God is really using it to refine me and grow my dependence for Him. I feel like God knows that we’re a relationship-oriented people… so when He wants to challenge us to love, rely, trust and seek Him more, He’ll put people in our lives to teach us these things. I know I have so much to learn about God and His ways… I also know I have so much to learn about Patrick and his ways… but hopefully as I pray, God would reveal to me all the necessary things I need to know. 

Love is an action first and a feeling second. If you love people, eventually you’ll come to like them. -Tim Keller

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